Scoliotic

I've been diagnosed with scoliosis. For the second time. The first time was when I was entering the University of the Philippines. A medical certificate was required for the admissions. The doctor said it was thoracic dextro-scoliosis. A mild one and should be no cause for concern.

Now my back has been giving me pains and I had a check up with the doctor some weeks back, now it is lumbar scoliosis. My ortho without even asking me said, I had scoliosis some ten years back. He's given me some medication and physiotherapy exercises. The exercises are very much similar to the yoga asanas I've been doing in my yoga practices. But this time, it is more focused on alignment. My doctor also recommended swimming as a form of rehabilitation.

I realised that the curve in my spine is calling me for alignment, of lengthening my center. I knew somehow this has got to do with my inner alignment, and the larger things seem to call me to gather my inner awareness towards the center. And focus on what really matters.

The structure in the image is a landmark near my place. I have taken the photo one Friday evening, I was walking by the creek, with only my camera as companion. I have always been fascinated with it, but I don't know exactly what to call it. But what I see in it is balance and strength, made more beautiful by the fire under its belly. And that's what keeps it a glowing structure.

As breathe is my fire, posture is my strength.

Back to Blogging

Hello, please welcome me back to the world of blogging.

For many months that I have been away, living the daily grind of life, I have been restless and have never felt more pointless, not being able to write. It is a sad thing to do, shutting off from this virtual existence. But now I am back, I hope to keep and sustain this blog with daily woes, rants, joys, insights, and simply my way of swimming away from the sea of irrelevance!

Every day of our lives, we encounter the world's changing, fast and furious. My wide-eyed dreamer self sometimes could not keep up to it, leaving me on a standstill. Or sometimes, ending up 'barking on the wrong tree'. It is a crazy world, but we have a precious life to live. It is difficult to hold on to once-firmly held principles, but it is worth trying to keep floating and get hold on to trunks that have deep roots on genuine love and open mind.

On some days, I wonder why I do the things I do against the things I wish I should be doing. There are times that I feel I am in the wrong place, and everything else feels it shouldn't be what it seems to be. But I am only one perfectly flawed person. It's not an excuse, but it's the truth. I consider it an achievement to be able to discern what I am capable of doing and what I just can't pull through. As for the rest of those things hanging out there, waiting to be done, maybe, some other time.

Perhaps, there is no such place for consistency, but there is always room for change.